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I have been thinking about what someone brought up in our Life Group at church. There was a broadcast talking about what your family values, and how your children would evaluate that.
I thought surely my daughter would say that we watch a lot of tv and wasn't quite sure what else so I was a bit nervous to hear her answer.
To my surprise she actually said she thinks God is most important to this family! I was so proud and excited to hear that, esp. when I feel sometimes I am really doing a poor job at teaching her and communicating with her. I have always stressed how important our relationship with Jesus is, and that is the only thing that will make us happy and get us through this life. I also explain how important it is to seek Him, but I need to work on being more proactive in reading and studying His word with her more. Though I know that I need to work harder with my children, at least there is some confirmation I am doing something right.
Thank you Lord that you radiate through my relationship with you, even when I feel I am failing at learning and teaching more of you to my children!

So this is one area I have prayed to die to, me time, as we talked about at church today.. dying to areas that we have to every day in our walk with Christ. Laziness is so easy for me to fall into, as well as just taking care of me sometimes. I realize this more when I get irritated with my children bc I am on the computer, or watching a show, or just trying to read or clean... seem to loose my sensitivity when I am caught up in what I am doing. So first I need to break this cycle and be more of an example to my girls and really stop, listen and pay attention to their needs, regardless of the things I think are important that I need to get done! I want to leave a legacy and don't want them feeling mom was too busy (even with housework) to just stop and hug or listen to me. Granted, there are times when I need to focus on these things, but I just don't want them to be in the way of my family, and even more importantly, my time with the Lord.
I get caught up in playing games sometimes too with my husband instead of focusing in my time with God. I think it is great that I spend all that time with him, but I need to make time with Christ first so that I can be fed, and grow in the Lord, and be able to put that forth in my family too! Lord, help me to set my priorities in order, as you would have me order them!

All this to really stir in me even more the desire to really have that important time with Christ each and every day, to die moment by moment to myself and my desires, and instead let the Lord truly use me for His purposes. I know I am not perfect by any means, but I want to continue to be pruned so God can use me to the fullest for His glory! Sometimes I feel I don't always know what His plan is for me, but I know that if I will just trust in Him, read and meditate on His word, wait and listen for Him that he is FAITHFUL!

Thank you Lord that you are always faithful, even when I am lacking in faith. Even when I stumble and when I loose time with you that is SO precious! Thank you that you will perfect and be faithful to complete the good work you started in me! I know that I am not worthy, but I thank you SO much for choosing me as your daughter, grafted into your vine! You are my Jesus, my Savior and I worship you and praise you for you are SO worthy! Abba Father, have you way in my life, in my time, in my talents and treasures, in my marriage and in my family! Be Glorified. Teach me your ways that I may walk in Your path, and Your truth! I love you Lord!! Thank you for the cross! Thank you for your love! Thank you for your words and that you are working in me to make me more like you each day, even when I don't always feel or see it! Thank you for your love and your healing and that you are with me even in my trials! I love you soo much daddy!!!