Argh! Here we go again.. wow! When did my girl change from listening to this attitude that everone is more important than me??!!! Thankfully, God helped me to have the peace I need not to blow up as I did another day and the goodbyes were a lot nicer this morning.
So then my question is always does it get any easier?? I mean, this is just a preteen stage.. soon to be a teen and I don't know if I can handle it. I mean, I know I can bc I know that I have the Lord with me, but its so rough sometimes bc we don't have a manual that says, "Now, when your child says or does this, you say or do this and all will be well." - Man! Wouldn't THAT be nice!!
Who ever said it would be easy.. no one, but I can still wish eh?
One day at a time, moments with Christ, time in stillness.. I must cherish these times. I love my daughter and I want her more than anything to have the wisdom and knowledge of the Lord and His holy spirit so I have to remember to do my part with my attitude and words so I can do all on my part to be that example.. EXAMPLE.. I have to remember this and focus constantly so I don't let my frusterations and emotions take over.. oh hard it can be too!
I do have to remember even in the times of hardship, when my daughter is more worried about her friends or being late than listening to my words that it is just that.. circumstances. So many times it is the timing and I have to be sensitive to that.. she is growing up.. she has a mind and obligations and she is becoming a lady. I am thankful for how the Lord is working and continue to pray for His hand in her life! I want so bad to establish the right timing and all this before she does become a full teenager.. while I can reach out to her still.. spend time with her.. talk with her.. I pray that the communication will never diminish, even if it isn't always as deep as I would like! I pray for love and respect in this home, for all of us, in Jesus name!
So this is my prayer today Lord - Let me be a light to my child, an example of how to STAY calm and NOT blow up in anger. To be an example and help her learn to be quick to listen, slow to speak and SLOW to become anger for man's wrath does not bring the righteous life YOU desire! Lord fill my daughter with your Holy spirit, with wisdom and knowledge of who you are and let her so desire to know you and seek you every day. Work in all the selfishness in her heart, as well as my own. I surrender my life and my parenting to you once again, daily I ask that you would take my life, change me for your Glory and pour out your spirit in this family and home. I love you Lord and know that I can do all things through you bc you strengthen me. You are my King and I pray that you would teach me and help me to grow in you to be all that you have me to be as a person, wife, mom, sister, and friend. Thank you Lord for loving me even through the tough times and please prepare my heart, attitude and mind for the future, esp. in my parenting and in my marriage. Let me always shine forth your love, and be quick to turn to you! I love you Abba Father!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
Crazy times
We have had a long past couple of weekends. We were in Tulsa the past two weekends. The first was to visit family, and we had a great time with the girls at the aquarium while we were there. More on that, along with pictures later.
This past weekend was nice bc we went to Laile's high school reunion. It was great to meet his buddies from back in the day, and to make some new friends that maybe we can hang out with now sometime when visiting T-town.
Now.. Friday morning I was drinking some reheated coffee I had made the day before like I do occassionally. I was getting to the bottom of the cup, when I felt something in my mouth, which I spit immediately back into the cup.. I knew I had not dipped any food in the coffee so I had a really nauseating feeling in the pit of my stomach already, thinking this may be a bug.. Well, I poured out the coffee, and sure enough it was a dead fly! YUCKKKKKK!! I threw up into the sink as soon as I saw it! From now on it is fresh coffee ALL the time.. I am still disgusted and have a knot in my stomach thinking about it!
Sooo.. on the way to Tulsa we stopped at Applebees to eat lunch. I was on the phone with my sister, and Laile said I needed to change Meghan bc the guys bathroom didn't have a changing table in it. I was really into my conversation and had the phone in one hand, and Meghan on my hip when I walked into the bathroom. It took me a few minutes to realize there was a man standing up, looking at me over his shoulder with an uneasy smile, like he was saying "hello.. this is the men's restroom.." - Whoa... I finally realized I was in the men's restroom, ran out, and went straight into the women's restroom. My sister said she had done that, which I remember bc I laughed at her! Well.. another reason to get off the cell phone and focus on what you are doing! :)
Last crazy story.. we arrived home at 3am Sunday morning from Tulsa bc Laile was on call and I had to be at church at 8 am. Laile was taking Meghan inside, calming her down so she wouldn't wake up, and all of a sudden he flipped out! He threw his keys down, was flailing his arms, and Meghan was screaming and crying! I was wondering what in the world caused him to do this and wake up Meghan, when he said he walked into a spider web!! I couldn't believe he freaked out so bad! He did not want that spider on him! Well.. he put M in her crib and when I walked in she was screaming.. I told him she was prob. scared bc of what had just happened and we had to lay with her for awhile for her to calm down.
The next day, I actually saw this spider and realized I would have freaked out if I had known how big this little sucker was!! Laile got it down from the door with the broom, and then finally killed it.. not pretty!!
So goes the many adventures of this last weekend.. it was very eventful to say the least! :)
This past weekend was nice bc we went to Laile's high school reunion. It was great to meet his buddies from back in the day, and to make some new friends that maybe we can hang out with now sometime when visiting T-town.
Now.. Friday morning I was drinking some reheated coffee I had made the day before like I do occassionally. I was getting to the bottom of the cup, when I felt something in my mouth, which I spit immediately back into the cup.. I knew I had not dipped any food in the coffee so I had a really nauseating feeling in the pit of my stomach already, thinking this may be a bug.. Well, I poured out the coffee, and sure enough it was a dead fly! YUCKKKKKK!! I threw up into the sink as soon as I saw it! From now on it is fresh coffee ALL the time.. I am still disgusted and have a knot in my stomach thinking about it!
Sooo.. on the way to Tulsa we stopped at Applebees to eat lunch. I was on the phone with my sister, and Laile said I needed to change Meghan bc the guys bathroom didn't have a changing table in it. I was really into my conversation and had the phone in one hand, and Meghan on my hip when I walked into the bathroom. It took me a few minutes to realize there was a man standing up, looking at me over his shoulder with an uneasy smile, like he was saying "hello.. this is the men's restroom.." - Whoa... I finally realized I was in the men's restroom, ran out, and went straight into the women's restroom. My sister said she had done that, which I remember bc I laughed at her! Well.. another reason to get off the cell phone and focus on what you are doing! :)
Last crazy story.. we arrived home at 3am Sunday morning from Tulsa bc Laile was on call and I had to be at church at 8 am. Laile was taking Meghan inside, calming her down so she wouldn't wake up, and all of a sudden he flipped out! He threw his keys down, was flailing his arms, and Meghan was screaming and crying! I was wondering what in the world caused him to do this and wake up Meghan, when he said he walked into a spider web!! I couldn't believe he freaked out so bad! He did not want that spider on him! Well.. he put M in her crib and when I walked in she was screaming.. I told him she was prob. scared bc of what had just happened and we had to lay with her for awhile for her to calm down.
The next day, I actually saw this spider and realized I would have freaked out if I had known how big this little sucker was!! Laile got it down from the door with the broom, and then finally killed it.. not pretty!!
So goes the many adventures of this last weekend.. it was very eventful to say the least! :)
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Silly Times
Meghan found this pair of goggles and wanted to wear them around. It just cracked me up! Oh, and a friend mentioned what great pics I could use to show when she gets married!! :)Its So Bright!
Meghan does not really like when the sun is in her eyes, so when we are outside she likes to cover one eye to block the sun. her eyes, so when we are outside she likes to cover one eye to block the sun. 
Then, in the car she recently put her rag on her head to keep the sun out, and I had to capture that also bc it was too cute, and smart!! She does cutest things these days! :)
SHOPPING
We recently went to Super Target with my parents so they could find something for our cousins. Meghan was enjoying looking at the toys, and next thing I know, she picked the one she wanted and started walking off with it! I thought this was too funny and had to take some pics. Too bad this was too expensive and not for babies!Sunday, July 27, 2008
Questions
I have been thinking about what someone brought up in our Life Group at church. There was a broadcast talking about what your family values, and how your children would evaluate that.
I thought surely my daughter would say that we watch a lot of tv and wasn't quite sure what else so I was a bit nervous to hear her answer.
To my surprise she actually said she thinks God is most important to this family! I was so proud and excited to hear that, esp. when I feel sometimes I am really doing a poor job at teaching her and communicating with her. I have always stressed how important our relationship with Jesus is, and that is the only thing that will make us happy and get us through this life. I also explain how important it is to seek Him, but I need to work on being more proactive in reading and studying His word with her more. Though I know that I need to work harder with my children, at least there is some confirmation I am doing something right.
Thank you Lord that you radiate through my relationship with you, even when I feel I am failing at learning and teaching more of you to my children!
So this is one area I have prayed to die to, me time, as we talked about at church today.. dying to areas that we have to every day in our walk with Christ. Laziness is so easy for me to fall into, as well as just taking care of me sometimes. I realize this more when I get irritated with my children bc I am on the computer, or watching a show, or just trying to read or clean... seem to loose my sensitivity when I am caught up in what I am doing. So first I need to break this cycle and be more of an example to my girls and really stop, listen and pay attention to their needs, regardless of the things I think are important that I need to get done! I want to leave a legacy and don't want them feeling mom was too busy (even with housework) to just stop and hug or listen to me. Granted, there are times when I need to focus on these things, but I just don't want them to be in the way of my family, and even more importantly, my time with the Lord.
I get caught up in playing games sometimes too with my husband instead of focusing in my time with God. I think it is great that I spend all that time with him, but I need to make time with Christ first so that I can be fed, and grow in the Lord, and be able to put that forth in my family too! Lord, help me to set my priorities in order, as you would have me order them!
All this to really stir in me even more the desire to really have that important time with Christ each and every day, to die moment by moment to myself and my desires, and instead let the Lord truly use me for His purposes. I know I am not perfect by any means, but I want to continue to be pruned so God can use me to the fullest for His glory! Sometimes I feel I don't always know what His plan is for me, but I know that if I will just trust in Him, read and meditate on His word, wait and listen for Him that he is FAITHFUL!
Thank you Lord that you are always faithful, even when I am lacking in faith. Even when I stumble and when I loose time with you that is SO precious! Thank you that you will perfect and be faithful to complete the good work you started in me! I know that I am not worthy, but I thank you SO much for choosing me as your daughter, grafted into your vine! You are my Jesus, my Savior and I worship you and praise you for you are SO worthy! Abba Father, have you way in my life, in my time, in my talents and treasures, in my marriage and in my family! Be Glorified. Teach me your ways that I may walk in Your path, and Your truth! I love you Lord!! Thank you for the cross! Thank you for your love! Thank you for your words and that you are working in me to make me more like you each day, even when I don't always feel or see it! Thank you for your love and your healing and that you are with me even in my trials! I love you soo much daddy!!!
I thought surely my daughter would say that we watch a lot of tv and wasn't quite sure what else so I was a bit nervous to hear her answer.
To my surprise she actually said she thinks God is most important to this family! I was so proud and excited to hear that, esp. when I feel sometimes I am really doing a poor job at teaching her and communicating with her. I have always stressed how important our relationship with Jesus is, and that is the only thing that will make us happy and get us through this life. I also explain how important it is to seek Him, but I need to work on being more proactive in reading and studying His word with her more. Though I know that I need to work harder with my children, at least there is some confirmation I am doing something right.
Thank you Lord that you radiate through my relationship with you, even when I feel I am failing at learning and teaching more of you to my children!
So this is one area I have prayed to die to, me time, as we talked about at church today.. dying to areas that we have to every day in our walk with Christ. Laziness is so easy for me to fall into, as well as just taking care of me sometimes. I realize this more when I get irritated with my children bc I am on the computer, or watching a show, or just trying to read or clean... seem to loose my sensitivity when I am caught up in what I am doing. So first I need to break this cycle and be more of an example to my girls and really stop, listen and pay attention to their needs, regardless of the things I think are important that I need to get done! I want to leave a legacy and don't want them feeling mom was too busy (even with housework) to just stop and hug or listen to me. Granted, there are times when I need to focus on these things, but I just don't want them to be in the way of my family, and even more importantly, my time with the Lord.
I get caught up in playing games sometimes too with my husband instead of focusing in my time with God. I think it is great that I spend all that time with him, but I need to make time with Christ first so that I can be fed, and grow in the Lord, and be able to put that forth in my family too! Lord, help me to set my priorities in order, as you would have me order them!
All this to really stir in me even more the desire to really have that important time with Christ each and every day, to die moment by moment to myself and my desires, and instead let the Lord truly use me for His purposes. I know I am not perfect by any means, but I want to continue to be pruned so God can use me to the fullest for His glory! Sometimes I feel I don't always know what His plan is for me, but I know that if I will just trust in Him, read and meditate on His word, wait and listen for Him that he is FAITHFUL!
Thank you Lord that you are always faithful, even when I am lacking in faith. Even when I stumble and when I loose time with you that is SO precious! Thank you that you will perfect and be faithful to complete the good work you started in me! I know that I am not worthy, but I thank you SO much for choosing me as your daughter, grafted into your vine! You are my Jesus, my Savior and I worship you and praise you for you are SO worthy! Abba Father, have you way in my life, in my time, in my talents and treasures, in my marriage and in my family! Be Glorified. Teach me your ways that I may walk in Your path, and Your truth! I love you Lord!! Thank you for the cross! Thank you for your love! Thank you for your words and that you are working in me to make me more like you each day, even when I don't always feel or see it! Thank you for your love and your healing and that you are with me even in my trials! I love you soo much daddy!!!
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Small accomplishments, big rewards
It has been awhile since I have blogged, so I thought one was due. :)
Soo.. last Monday, my 18 month old broke her arm in 2 places. She fell off a chair in our kitchen and cried more than usual, and we finally got her to point to her wrist when trying to figure out what was in pain. She got up twice that night, but we decided to see how she was the next day. Though mostly just fussy the next day, she screamed when she fell on the wrist she pointed to the night before. After that, she screamed when I was wiping off her hand when she ate, and that was enough for me to decide to take her to the doc. She acted as if nothing was wrong so I am sure they thought I was crazy, but when they looked at the x-rays, sure enough she had broken her arm! She was such a trooper, and the good thing is that it didn't seem to hurt unless she moved it a certain way, so that has been a good thing. She helped them put the splint on and Ohh.. how sad it was to see her in that sling!
Soo.. last Monday, my 18 month old broke her arm in 2 places. She fell off a chair in our kitchen and cried more than usual, and we finally got her to point to her wrist when trying to figure out what was in pain. She got up twice that night, but we decided to see how she was the next day. Though mostly just fussy the next day, she screamed when she fell on the wrist she pointed to the night before. After that, she screamed when I was wiping off her hand when she ate, and that was enough for me to decide to take her to the doc. She acted as if nothing was wrong so I am sure they thought I was crazy, but when they looked at the x-rays, sure enough she had broken her arm! She was such a trooper, and the good thing is that it didn't seem to hurt unless she moved it a certain way, so that has been a good thing. She helped them put the splint on and Ohh.. how sad it was to see her in that sling!
With the hot pink cast / Right after the cast was taken off, on the car ride home
On Thursday she got her hard cast put on. We let her choose what color, and she went straight for the hot pink one! She did good with this too, though she didn't like being held there while it was drying hard. Soo.. she has been great so far, and thankfully she will be getting it off in only 3 wks, versus 6!
Sooo.. back to my original title.. We were so concerned about giving M a bath. She really needed one when this all happened and we wished we could have given her a quick one when they took of the splint, before they put the hard cast on. I bought some more of the disposable soapy washcloths, and we laid her down at the sink to wash her hair. We haven't done this in the past bc she is such a wiggle worm, and she loves to be in the bath anyway. She was great! We were so happy that we were able to wash her hair w/o incident, and she was great about keeping her arm away (the broken one) too! YEAH! We have a wonderfully clean baby again!
I know I know.. not really that big a deal, but a great one to us!
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